Funny Girl

Bored..

Well since I desperately do not want to work on any homework at all, I am going to blog about my FEELINGS (aww). I always have this heavy feeling in my heart when things are going to well in my life. I feel like, i’m so scared that this moment isn’t going to last and will eventually fade, just like the others. I’m so scared that I just ruin things from the beginning JUST so I won’t have to go through that excruciatingly painful process of it not being there anymore. *Sigh but I know that isn’t the right thing to do, therefore I am trying to have a more positive outlook when it comes to those things now. Training my mind for the past few days has been hard, but well worth it. I see how things can really change as long as you put a positive outlook on it and have a better attitude towards life. I know that my problems may seem minute compared to the others out there, but they really hurt sometimes and this is definitely the time for me to grow and be strong for myself because in the end, no one else will but me. Too much time alone with my thoughts is no good because all it does is lead me to more negative assumptions about things and extreme paranoia. Must change attitude, will save me a lot of time and unnecessary trouble. I like the person I am, although there are some things I would like to change and better, but truly, I am contented with me. Nobody is perfect and I can definitely attest to that, but that’s what makes things all the more better. Imperfections can be funny, they can be relate-able, they can make us love things all the more just because it is the way it is, not striving to be anymore than that, and I can appreciate that. Refining myself is my project to myself currently and i’m awaiting the day where I reach my ultimate happiness with myself. DONE.

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